Where do I begin....
For a few months now, I have been contemplating with the idea of having a blog that's dedicated to the up's and down's of getting pregnant. So I finally came up with the name and decided that I would make it "unplugged" meaning I would literally talk about all the stuff that I'm going through "uncensored" while pregnant.
Last year in April 2011 I had a missed miscarriage at 11 weeks and I was devastated to the core of my heart. I had sent out an e-mail to people announcing the pregnancy and how happy we were to be expanding our family. Well low and behold little did I know that I will have to send the dreaded e-mail to announce the dreaded news of the miscarriage.
So I humbled myself and sent out the email and literally shut down emotionally while I re-grouped and tried to get my swagger back. In the midst of all this, all the women around me started getting pregnant. Ooh gawd what a kick in the butt that felt to me. I tried my best to be happy and pleased for them however I was pissed off inside that I wasn't getting pregnant.
I started to do a lot of reading to get my mind on a different mind set and low and behold I came across a book called the "Infertility Cure". I literally threw myself into that book and read it cover to cover to try to understand why it was taking so bloody long for me to get pregnant again. In the meantime I had gone to get a physical done and my Doctor referred me to a Fertility Clinic that specializes in getting women above 40 pregnant.
The Fertility Cure suggested a few things that I should in order to balance my body so that all of me was in tact. I started going for Acupuncture as well as going to the Fertility Clinic. My Acupuncture sessions were very calm and laid back "Tanya" the Acupuncturist was amazing. I remember my first appointment with her where I literally cried for half an hour as I couldn't speak or tell her why I was there.
Eventually I gathered myself and I just poured my heart out to her and told her that she was my last hope, and she assured me by letting me know that she could help me out and did she ever come through or what. BUT before we get there, I have to mention the nightmarish experience I was going through at the Fertility Clinic.
We were hooked up with a Doctor that told me that my "eggs" were just old and expired hence that's the reason why I wasn't getting pregnant. However he would try to trick my eggs into thinking there were young and hopefully get me pregnant as soon as possible. We told the Doctor that we wanted to try naturally for at least 3 months and see what happens.
He wasn't too keen on the plan, however he said he would let us give it a try and see what happens. He told me to start taking 600mg of CoEnzyme Q 10 on a daily basis and go into his office every morning for "Ovulation Monitoring" and of course it had to be done every morning before 7:00am. Ooh gawd I used to wake up every morning and head out and to the Fertility Clinic and recall seeing other women who were in the same boat as me there patiently waiting for the process to start.
I used to think going to for a "Pap" was full exposure.......ooh please what was I thinking. Ovulation monitoring literally made a "Pap" look private. Ovulation Monitoring was full exposure to all, I had to get my blood drawn and then get what I started calling a camera "dildo" inside me to check if I was close to ovulating or not. Sometimes there would be a student doctor in the room with us and it was my vagina et al on full display.
The first month was a NO GO, as we didn't get pregnant and I was disappointed however on the Acupuncture side, "the Acupuncturist" was content with the results that she was seeing on my part. I stopped getting menstrual cramps with my 1st period after my first Acupuncture session and my cycle that month was at 28 days.
The second month I went back for the cycle monitoring and since my husband couldn't come to the face-to-face meeting with the Doctor we had a conference call and the Doctor suggested that since it didn't work the first month we should jump into having IUI which stands for "Intrauterine Insemination"...we both were like NO NO NO.
His tone and attitude immediately changed towards us and started saying that he doesn't think we would get pregnant naturally and that we are wasting his time blah, blah, blah. I was so pissed off that I left with so much hate for him. I went for my next Acupuncture session and once again cried to the Acupuncturist.
The Acupuncturist told me that I should realize that most fertility clinics make money with IUI and Invitro Fertilization. They look down upon patients that want to try naturally without drugs as these patients such as myself are NOT money makers for them. We are considered seat fillers. Armed with this knowledge I knew exactly what I needed to do and I totally became focused on getting my body balanced via Acupuncture and taking it one day at a time.
My hubby and I started doing our own cycle monitoring and we calculated when our chance of ovulating would be. We were making love and not really paying attention to what the Doctor was saying. I went for what turned out to be my last cycle monitoring and he said to me....oh oh I think you ovulated already and I was like "What The HECK" so why wouldn't you get me to come earlier to monitor me.
I went back home and I was once again so devastated and pissed that this moronic Doctor was seriously sabotaging our chances of ever getting pregnant naturally. Huffing and puffing I went to my another Acupuncture session and tried not to think too much about psycho Doctor and low and behold 4 weeks later when I went for a pregnancy test......and found out I was pregnant.
I'm like ooh duh and guess what the psycho Doctor tried to take all the credit for it and I just rolled my eyes in disgust. I went to share the news with my Acupuncturist who was so thrilled and happy for me and she said what did I tell ya...you listened to your body and things happened for you.
Now fast forward to today and I'm 25 weeks pregnant and I'm being taken care of by the best Midwives ever. The way they are looking after me and this pregnancy is so amazing. I'm calmer this pregnancy around and I'm looking forward to having a peaceful and zen like delivery if there is such a thing.
Above picture was taken at 22 weeks, I will try to get caught up with my pictures on a weekly basis....:)